Realizations...

I have lost people before. Lost contact. Lost their presence in my life. Lost the relationship that I shared with those people..... Friends. Lover. Family. Never in my life have I ever experienced something quiet as nerve wrecking as the realization that came with Aamir's murder.

So yea, today I am going to talk about something which I've been meaning to for a while. It doesn't mean I am in some sort of emo phase, nor is this intended to be anything depressing. It's the quiet realization of something which everyone has to go through at one point in their life. Grieving once you lose someone.

I've realized, one of the most difficult, most agonizing phases someone has to go through is when a person is faced with a sudden loss of a loved one. Without any warning, without any indication, without any preparation............ And when they're gone ..you're left with things you've wanted to say to that person, or things that person would've wanted to say to you... unfinished.

I don't know who suffers the most. The one who has passed away or the one that is left behind to mourn. But I do know that I am going to give my closed ones that last chance to communicate with me. I am not going to put them through the torture Aamir's family and friends are going through right now. I was born to bring happiness in to everybody's life... I was a "blessing" and I will make sure, it stays this way even when I cease to exist.