Institutionalization works in such amazing ways..everything that takes place in your life is sandwiched in between "terms".. Its funny then when you're already unsure about doing the institutionalization part right to think a large chunk of your life is dictated by this..phenomena. Having finished a quarter of this year's terms that I have to study through, I can't tell if I'm any wiser now, then I was before starting this Sep -shrug- ...maybe I dont realise or the gaining knowledge aspect is not that obvious when you're going through classes on a regular basis..but still...... lol I guess it'll be obvious when I get my assessments this year.
Hmmm...society works in similar ways too y'know...most of your life is decided from the moment you're born: study, work, marry, concieve, retire, die. That's the general order anyway...and although people tend to conform to it..sometimes I think its just making things complicated..putting barriers up..aik bande ki khud ki kuch aqal bhi honi chahiye na...where is the opportunity to showcase your creativity..chalo not showcase but express...the opportunity to decide for yourself..even if its just for once..the freedom to do what you feel something about and the confidence to carry out that something...where's the opportunity for that? ...Studying does not imply success, marriage does not imply love, having children does not imply happiness..... Pyaar bhi hona chahiye :p ..in all seriousness..love, passion..us tarah ka jazba y'know...to feel like you're a part of something great?....otherwise we're just...puppets....
Maybe Im not making any sense at all...lekin Im confident about the choice I've made..the decision and the move I'll be making that'll change the rest of the course of my life..and Im confident about sticking to it. The commitment part..that's not scary at all... I just wish I don't take away thier happiness in order to have mine.........
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