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I've always found it a little obnoxious when people say "FML" at every other thing.... Maybe because I've learnt to be grateful for what we have or because I've been too scared of uttering the words, in the fear of putting bad luck...jinxing ourselves like that...or because of the fear of displeasing Allah (swt).... Jo bhi hai.... I don't understand the reason behind the chain of hardships He seems to have all planned for us this year.......... I am not questioning, just..asking for forgiveness. I've kneeled. I have bowed.

After a long week of driving in and out of hospital..... Its inevitable that Hira needs to have brain surgery.. Like keeping it from maa wasn't enough, now Im making excuses to keep it from papa too............... -sigh- It all comes down to tomorrow...

Ya Rabb..I am not strong and this is hard. Meri behn hai..make her strong, grant her health and make her well...Take mine if you want, just descend all your mercy and blessings on her...

Im praying with all my heart that it's benign... In his words though "everything related to the brain is serious"...

O our Lord, do not hold us responsible if we forget or make a mistake. O our Lord, do not lay on us a burden such as You laid on those before us. O our Lord, do not impose upon us that which we have not the strength (to bear). Pardon us, and forgive us, and have mercy on us. You are our Lord-master, so help us against the unbelieving people.