I have a fever since last night. Going nuclear as we speak. Gahh. Haven't updated in a while, I know. Lost all my inspiration and will before I could figure it out. Got a little something way too much held back in my head so it would've made sense to put it out here at least..but um..mehh... -sighs- ...I've had way too many realizations past few months. Dil nai karta ab. I am grateful papa is okay and has made it this far. Still gives me a huge lump in throat playing it back in my head - everything I saw. The pain he was in. The doctors in despair. The desperation with which we all prayed. The uncertainity this whole period has left us with. Tauba tauba. I have put up a brave front until now but deep down I am just as much scared as anybody else...
....beginning to black out now. This has become more frequent than I would've liked since that first time this year.
It's hard to build a body out of words. Its harder when there's so much to say..and... and... you realise you're all alone.
(Silence).
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