more on love and what not

Life tricks us. We feel as though there is always time. We feel as though there are never-ending tomorrows. And love makes us think we can get through anything.

Looking back at everything we've survived, it doesn't surprise me at making it this far y'know?.. maybe because I had this confidence we always would..

Won't you help me help us survive the rest of it? ..Why is it that we are in sync when we are planning, but when it comes to execution, it falls apart? Am I just asking for the impossible? Should I accept that this is something that will not happen, that I am waiting for nothing?

What should I do? ..I can't do it for you, or I would Aqib. And you who can, why don't you?

Why don't you understand that if we keep heading this way, this will be a battle I won't be able to win? And you know me, right? I can't close my eyes and accept, without struggle, without preparation, what tomorrow is bringing. I can't watch the end approach and do nothing. Help me face it. Or understand that when I tell you what the consequences of your inaction will be, I am not threatening you. I am telling you what's coming. I am begging you to understand the magnitude of what's coming. It's not a threat, or an ultimatum, or a fight. It's the truth. It's a ..plea.

We have survived so much. Made it out happy, relieved, still holding onto each other for dear life, still in love. And to think that this could be what breaks us, breaks my heart.

......We are running out of time. I wish we could hide inside our bubble, our own world forever, but we are going to be ripped out of it and made to suffer and hurt and adapt. I can't save us on my own if I am the only one trying babe......

Sighs. I thought we could survive everything if we were together. I thought our love would be enough. You make me think its not - that my love for you isn't enough.........