There's so much hate and hurt in the world; it makes any pain I have insignificant y'know? ..I don't know..lately, the world just seems like a very dark place to be.......... I keep seeing pictures from Palestine and Syria and Sydney and Peshawar and Paris and Nigeria...... No where is safe anymore. Maybe its always been like this and only really emerging now because the haters, the zionists, are stronger than ever? ..Maybe its just approaching the end of time, y'know what with muslims under scrutiny everywhere, planes going missing, thousands of people dying sudden deaths...... I don't know, too many theories......
Its scary. Makes me want to hold everyone I love, close..
Talking of people I love, there's my mum.. you know I realise I don't really talk about her much but its probably only because what I feel for maa is ..overwhelming. She's just too nice like that. Mama's not well, there's these liver issues and I don't know what thoughts maa has herself but I wish Allah miyan would give her all my years too because we need her that much.. I don't think any other mum would've been as supportive and non-judgemental as maa has been for me especially this past year... Not just me; she doesn't even think less of..Aqib. Dare I say even admires him for going along with his dad. It says a lot about her character; not letting the heartache of her daughter sully what she thinks is right or wrong. Of course, that's just one dimension.... probably also thinks her daughter fell for a wuss. We've stopped talking about that anymore......
I haven't stopped thinking, still, though..... I don't know when that stops.. the hurt isn't as ..overt anymore; I miss him all the same.... keeping myself busy. Work's okay. There's a routine. He's still present in all aspects of that routine... heh.. patta nai main dheet hoon k woh... Probably just me.
Adia's having a baby. Soon, too. Isn't that crazy? Her heart still beating for another man? ..I never want to be in that position =/ ... I wish I could make her happier, somehow... God's plans; only He knows what He wants. I can only say a little prayer she finds peace and happiness in her little bundle of joy, enough to take away all her pains.
That's enough writing for one day, i think....
Song in my title. Word. -_-
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