Been up the whole night trying to sleep but haven' been able to.. kal bhi sara din was pretty listless... You know what's strangely painful.. it's when you've known something for a while right and you've believed that and its still just as true as before..but you look at it from a different perspective and it's like..you can't decided which one you'd like more..not like more.. but which one is probably a more selfless option that way............... It's ironic how wanting to be selfless for the one you love rounds up to still being selfish.. because y'know..the person is still yours....... it's beautiful and painful at the same time..... I just..I feel like I've fallen short.....
My dad says Im sensitive. He says Im sensitive. I probably am too..I care a lot..I feel a lot.. I think a lot..however surprising that may sound..... I think and it brings me pain.....not because of anyone but me and how I am.. I wish I could be better.... I wish those I rely on could rely on me too.... I wish I could be their strength like they are mine.. I wish I could bring a little warmth in their life..to symbolize a speck of how much I love......
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