Here's a plan..

Not going to dwell on anything for now.. Im going to try. And Im going to let life be as uncertain as it is. It is very very uncertain. 

It's this that gets to me y'know - uncertainity. You could say it's right here, sitting on my palm but see..I can't close my fingers around it and hold it in my hand knowing its really mine.

.........Sudden urges to punch something really hard.