Resuming..

So I fainted today. In the bathroom. Contrary to popular beliefs I don't think its related to not eating properly so I won't put it on the other blog..just I don't know..I don't speak to anyone so I have to put it down somewhere and get over it...

I was preparing for the exam the whole night so I thought I'd get changed early and go downstaires to revise before I have to leave.... So..um..I remember heading towards the sink and next thing I remember is opening my eyes and realising my face is on the bathroom floor. There I was lying half naked with things scattered around me. Must've been there for atleast 15-20 minutes. The door was locked so even if it had been for longer, nobody would've known especially that early in the morning..

I don't know why Im even writing it down.. it was just different from last time..iIve been numb the whole day.. Exam mein bhi wasted the first 30 minutes just starring in to space.. I think I screwed it up.. don't remember what I wrote.... Last time jab hui thi, I didn't even realise.. This time I could tell I was going to collapse..I had all these random things going on in my head.. "Im a  guy, I fuck"..Im a girl who didn't even think of anybody else ever, and yet im a whore who can't be trusted... I hope MHC or complement question comes up, then I can nail it.... Wait..Im blanking out, I don't remember a thing.... "Ruined my day Rabia"..probably ruined his life too..I know mine isn't getting anywhere... I need to unlock the door quick... That was the thought bubble more or less.. 

Um.. yup... Maa is super worried. Bechari. Abhi she has no idea about ..y'know..what I didn't tell anyone...

Thankyou. Totally over it now.