I saw Papa in my dream this morning... its weird.. so far, all the dreams I have had of Papa have been where he's not alive...... I don't know if dreams have meaning or if they're just an illustration of whatever we're thinking or whatever we want subconsciously.. what I do know, is that.. I just miss him. It's great in a way that I still get to see Papa and hear his voice because Allah miyan knows I am not ready to look back at pictures or videos yet......... Its great in a way that I still get to feel his presence even in his absence..... Yea... it's great...
You know, sometimes on my phone.. in the contacts' list.. I feel like writing Papa a message when his name comes up... nothing important or you know..heart-to-heart for that matter... just.. a simple Hi. For that moment, I actually know what I want to write to him..its like I'm ready to type away "Hey pops..whats up?"..or whatever.. even though I know, very well, he won't reply this time. Maybe Hammad or Pulwashah will have a look at it a day later and think..what a weirdo ..o.0 .. -shrug-..
I miss him... alright?
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