Saturday, 19 October 2013

burned out.....

I haven't slept since, I don't know, feels forever but that can't be true, right? I mean, lack of sleep kills a lot faster than starvation, so ..that's saying something. To top it off, my alarm tone on the new phone has automatically chosen to ruin my life. Its just a messed up cycle of being tired, unable to sleep, finally sleeping and then waking up tired. 

Apart from that.. its.. pretty much status quo. Plus ça change, plus c'est la même chose. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

2014 in roughly 2 months, though. I mean, that's something to uh.. absorb, right?.. I don't know, people say this year's flown by.. I think, its been one of the longest. A lot seems to have gone down, too. Graduated a second time. Got a job. Then got another one. Hira started Uni. Hammad went to Pak, all by himself. Atif Aslam got married. Hina got nikkah'd. Lots of people got married, actually. Bhaijaan had a new baby girl. Mamu had a new baby boy. Lots of babies all around, too, come to think about it. William & Kate had The Royal Baby. One would have thought it wasn't a baby but return of The Messiah, himself. o.o

We all lived a little. We all died a little.

I was planning to finally make that New York trip, this winter. Persuaded Maa and everything. Finally had the money saved up, too. lol. Turns out, Miss-distant-relative finally realized she has a family in UK and decided she's gonna' make her layover a little longer while travelling from the states to Pak and ..uh.. give me the pleasure of being the host. This winter. So there goes my break and also the money I saved up, 'cuz she doesn't wanna' look around Cardiff. Oh no, she wants to stay over in very expensive london, during Christmas when it's double-y expensive AND busy. Its only obvious, the host bears all expenses, right?.. I mean, that's what Papa would do. Whole-heartedly. I guess, that's where I get it from, too. I'm not as generous as he was, but, I sure have this need to please everyone and to not let anyone down. Even if it means, postponing my plans to..uh..what seems like infinity now..

Everytime I bring up travelling to Maa, she's like "go with your husband".. - she's not missing the point that I am not actually married; its actually her way of emphasizing that is what's coming up. Talking of which, there's been a whole load of BLAHBLAHBLAH BLAHBLAH. I can understand aunties being pushy and nosey; but whats up with Keshi apa giving her two cents? and Jamil Bhai?.. -sigh- always knew men were bigger gossips than women -_-.. Bhai, apni life plan karo - annoy Hina. Meri mama ko kyun muft mashwarey de re ho?!..

uh.

Aik tau neend bhi ni aati, ooper se miss karo itna ziyada. Jis ko honi chahiye, usse value hi nai hai aur baki saarey haath dho k peeche parey we hain. >_>

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